Wednesday, January 7, 2009

you're so vain

when i thought about senior pictures, i had these grand visions. i hate to say being as i'm a male, and quite manly at that, but i guess its true. mostly just for one picture. i'd be at the end of our driveway with the white post fence going down it with a fresh and undisturbed 2 inches of snow on the ground covering everything and a light snow falling. wearing all black with my guitar. turns out, that didnt quite work as planned but it sure was a swell idea. although another one occured to me, with me standing directly in front of the bright sunset on top of the celebrity with my guitar(again), standing up there like i owned the world. epic to say the least. all of this has kind of made me think. we make such a huge deal about senior pics and some people spend hundreds of dollars on them (we went cheap and had my mom take them and print them at walmart..yay diy), but do they really matter that much? i think i'd rather have all the good times with my friends stored away up top than a beautiful studio rendition of them sitting in a box up in my attic. yeah, its great to have pictures of us in the prime of our lives so in 20 years our not-so-prime selves can look at them and realize how old we really are, and its pretty cool to have a buncha pictures of yourself where you only pick the good ones and can throw out the bad ones (like censoring your ugly moments). but i think it might get blown up a little too much. and it might blow up something else, and not in the destructive eruption sense of the word. Getting picture-perfect shots of yourself can kinda inflate the ego a little bit and put a little too much worth in appearance. I'm guessing this isn't the same for everyone, but i know for me, this is a little bit of an issue. i think everyone, whether consciously or subconsciously, regardless of what they say, does care to a certain extent about what they look like. they say you can't judge a book by its cover, but i'll guarantee a book with a neatly rhyming title and dr. suess characters backlit by bright colors on the front cover isn't an psychological murder thriller. without looking at us, people make assumptions and guesses about who we are and what we're like by how we look. i'd like to say i don't care a whole lot, but in reality, i know thats not the case. i gotta make sure the hair's sticking up just right, the clothes look right for the day, and all that junk. its sad, when i think about it. it makes me kind of glad we went the route we did. not only did it save a wad of cash, it probably saved me from getting a little too self-obsessed and full of myself..or something

i originally had this post done, but it didnt post and only saved like a third of it, deleting some stuff that was better than this day-old, reheated leftovers.. so if this didn't live up to expectations you can blame whoever invited dial-up instead of just skipping to dsl or something. . ya'll have a good..night, evening, morning, day, whatever applies while you're reading this..

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