video games are dumb

Help! I'm trapped at my friend's house an hour away from home with my friends who are obsessed with Age of Empires 2! It's two in the morning and I'm stuck here because I didn't drive.  And I'm bad at AOE.  And I don't care.  foo

Body Building

While milking in the mornings, the radio in the parlor is always playing KNWC.  First, let me say it was nice at first, but after two weeks of it, it's become a bit ridiculous.  Every morning I hear the same songs played.  Honestly, I think they just change the order and switch in ten new songs or so.  Kinda disappointed when considering how much good music there is out there compared to how much actually gets played.  But the main point of this blog is to point out a couple lines from a song that gets played often enough for me to have most of it memorized.  Stronger by Mandisa.  Another encouraging "life sucks but its ok cuz you have Jesus" songs.  Sure, most of it is good, but the last and main line of the chorus is "He knows that this is gunna make you stronger". 

Really?  Will it make you stronger?  Or will it make your trust in God stronger?  It seems those are the two options.  We could take the world's recommended course of action after hardships and become a stronger person and all that junk.  But to me that seems a lot like sticking an air compressor hose in your arm and pumping it up.  Sure, your muscles look bigger, but does it help?  I think when I'm at my weakest and most-bombarded, I'd rather depend on somebody else who already has the strength to handle it than endure the trial simply for the sake of coming out on the other end more self-reliant and assured of my ability to survive on my own.  When trials come, I think I'd rather have my weakness made evident so my trust goes to someone besides myself.  So, life is hard.  God's muscles or mine?

Sorry Mandisa.  I don't want to be stronger.

I was going to attempt to blog, but then i remembered that my sister's hard drive is plugged into my computer with new music that I don't have yet, so i'm going to do that instead.

Send me Summer

It's summer.  I survived exams and sophomore year, which I realized went by faster than anything else ever.  To be honest, I barely remember much of it.  Which is sad if this is the best years of my life. Anyways, two weeks ago, I planned on working on the farm again because every other job pursuit had failed(or so I thought).  Now, I have two jobs, one full-time and the other part time.  Needless to say, I will be working quite a bit this summer until I leave in July.  There are positives and negatives, but what seems to be overriding all these is the fact that I will finally be able to fill out the "List your most recent three jobs" section of a job application with something other than guitar lessons and teaching a guitar class for two weeks.  Not to mention that I can have references other than my youth pastor on my resume.  Maybe this is too much work just for a better resume, but I really would like to work somewhere else, not because I don't like the farm or my dad (or the flexibility), but because I'd just like to try something different than I've done the last 5 years.  Besides, it'll only be for six weeks, so if I hate it, it'll at least be short.  I think it'll go okay, though.  Have a good summer everyone.

ps - one huge downside - I'll barely be able to play league soccer this summer.  That's usually one of the highlights of my summer.  shoot.