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I literally wasted at least 3 hours today.  I don't mean the usual college distractions of facebook and friends (not actually a waste of time, but it doesn't help you get your homework done); I mean like I spent hours looking online for a Java game with open source code because I couldn't get mine to run.  Then I noticed the file on my desktop which included all the files I needed to make the application run.  No modifying the code, no messing with locations.  Just dragging and dropping that file into my project folder.  And voila, it runs perfectly.

Much to my chagrine...

I am an intimidating person.  I'm not loud and in-your-face (unless you make fun of my momma), and I'm not a jacked giant with skulls tattooed on my arms.  But I have received numerous reports from people that they were scared of me at first. I get a little sad when I hear this, because I'd like people to think I'm easy to approach.  Also, I don't usually strike up conversations or approach other people just for the sake of meeting them, so if they don't do it to me, no one will.  It makes me wonder if I subconsciously give off an aura of "don't talk to me", or if I'm just not friendly-looking, or if I'm acting in a way that somehow makes people uneasy.  A few people have attempted to explain their reasons but that usually fails to shed any light on it, in my opinion.

Most of my high school friends like to remind me that I was intimidating at the beginning of high school before they got to know me.  I didn't talk to my stand partner in concert band until second semester in part because I was shy, and in part because she was scared to talk to me.  A freshman I'm friends with now and have a couple classes with told me he was intimidated of me in our first semester speech class.  Maybe it's because I'm usually pretty quiet around people I don't know, and somehow that gets to people.  Or maybe it's because the default position of my face and/or eyebrows tends to a bit of a cross look (I think, anyways).  Or maybe its that time I stood on a table in the commons with a butter knife and said I was going to kill everyone in their sleep.  Whatever the reason is, it's beyond me.  I guess I just need to try to look nicer or something.  *sigh

so...

Now that I'm back from band tour, there's so much I could blog about.  But I haven't.

8 page paper and 4 page book review, both due Monday.  Go

the 12 days of tour-mas

I leave in 3 hours for band tour of the northeast U.S. and a little bit of Canada.  I've never been further east than Michigan, and I've always wanted to go to some of those huge metropolitan areas just for kicks, so I'm excited.  Also, I love traveling.  Especially when its free.  We'll be going through Iowa, Illinoise, Indiana, Michigan, Ontario, New York, Massachusetts, New Jersey, Pennsylvania, and Ohio.  Which adds several states to the list of places I've been.  Its so exciting.  Our free day is in Boston the day before St. Patty's, I'm super excited for that, not because of St. Pat's but because its 9 hours to roam around Boston.  Not sure what it is about big cities that excites me, but nevertheless I'm looking forward to seeing the East Coast.  Plus 5 - 8 hours on the bus every day will be awesome! if I can finish reading the three things I need to before Spring break is done to keep myself from falling ridiculously behind.   Most notably, the documents for a 6-8 page comparative paper due the week we get back.  That'll be fun.  But I think, Lord willing, it's going to be a fantastic trip.  I'm ready.

Note to self

I can't ever cut my hair again, or the world is going to end.  Nations will go to war with each other and people will riot in the streets, the children will cry and mothers weep, life comes to a standstill when Jon buzzes his head.

Do not fret.  It will grow back.  I promise.

"We take Jesus' command in Matthew 28 to make disciples of all nations, and we say, That means other people.  But we look at Jesus' command in Matthew 11:28, 'Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest,' and we say, Now, that means me.  We take Jesus' promise in Acts 1:8 that the Spirit will lead us to the ends of the earth, and we say, That means some people.  But we take Jesus' promise in John 10:10 that we will have abundant life, and we say, That means me."






Have I discarded the obligations of Christianity but held onto the privileges?